Why return to Malaysia... the training I intended to take in March to point my professional career in a certain direction did not materialize. The certification would have opened doors in New Zealand or anywhere else in the world for that matter. But a week prior to the start of the course, it was cancelled because of insufficient numbers. This training is only offered quarterly in a handful of locations globally and quite susceptible to cancellation especially during leaner times. I have returned also because I have realized that at this point in my life, I am not ready to reduce the level of social interaction and live in a more bucolic setting. Or a more mundane sedentary existence, it is not my calling now. I can't quite explain it but I feel New Zealand has served it's purpose, maybe it was simply so I could acquire the benefit of iridology and the supplements. Who knows maybe it will actually resolve my back issue that has plagued me for years and years. Maybe the true impact of the Oneness Blessing is yet to be perceived. Maybe to discover Tai Chi and the miracle it is to the body. Whatever it is, even if it turns out to all mean nothing in my life I will likely return to New Zealand someday again. This young country of open expanse and rugged unspoiled terrain that homes 4 million southern frontiers people. It is a gorgeous escape from the modern fast paced demanding lifestyle. And I will complete the Milford Trek.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Iridology
I leave Queenstown today to begin my journey back to Malaysia via Christchurch and Melbourne. Before I get on the bus to Christchurch at 230pm I take a trip into town for a long awaited appointment with an iridologist.
I had been trying unsuccessfully to schedule an appointment on short notice over the phone but the lady is always booked for days ahead. To make this appointment I booked almost two weeks in advance as soon as I returned from Auckland. This appointment certainly factored in my decision not to complete the Milford Trek. I felt this was important and that it would be an eye opening experience - no pun intended.
The lady seems rather unfriendly when I arrive. She directs me to a chair on the opposite side of the table without a smile. She enquires about my friends and I am surprised that she remembers my initial visit here many weeks ago when I came with Jules and Mervin. I decide that her curt mannerism is just her nature and I ease up, complying with her instruction to maneuver my head to brace my chin against the photographic machine. The pictures of my left and right eyes are displayed immediately on a large lcd monitor on her desk. "The left iris," she begins "tells us the condition of the left side of your body. And likewise the right iris for the right side." "You are fighting a virus right now, you probably are feeling the effects of a cold but you have a strong immunity. You can tell from the density of the optical fibres... "
For the next thirty minutes she leads me through her assessment. I am stunned to hear her mention my father's acidic stomach condition and that my mother is a highly anxious person that thinks too much, she didn't pass me enough red blood cells when I was in her womb. Both are correct about my parents, but I don't know about the red blood cells - I've never counted. She says that I've inherited the same tendencies from my parents referring to certain patterns in my iris. Then it gets even more impressive as she begins to list ailments that I experience. I have a tendency to be hypoglycemic, the level of sugar in my blood runs too low. So I like to eat sweet things to compensate. I have an issue with transport of oxygen to the brain (I really objected to this one), so I like to exert myself with physical exercise to boost the transport of oxygen in me otherwise I get depressed after a few days of inactivity. My spine leans to the left and is curved to the right and my pelvis is tilted downwards to the right. I probably have a numbness in my foot when I walk a lot. Correct again and I have good posture so she couldn't have seen this any other way. All of her assessments were spot on. I was quite amazed.
I ask her why my spine suffers this condition. In summary she says that we're genetically predisposed to certain weaknesses in us, inherited from our parents. The human body is designed to fix itself but it tends to not do so because of stress factors in our lives and inadequate levels of nutrition, the quality of the food we eat is in steady decline due to anti-biotics, perservatives and other additives, bio-engineering, chemical pesticides. We are simply not receiving the proper tools and conditions for our body to mend itself. She recommends certain supplements for me, essentially putting together a tailored program based on my iris analysis. She puts them on the table in front of me, I see 6 bottles and I choose the most important 4 to cut cost and because of space limitations in my luggage. According to her the most important one is to support my liver, many of my ailments stem from an inefficient liver. Consequently, my body's inability to rid itself of certain toxins that keep re-accumulating at glands along my spine is the primary reason for my spine to continually misalign itself despite a history of chiropractic adjustments. She is not pushy in her sales pitch and I sense I can trust this. I ask her bluntly to dispel any last reservation, "will these 4 supplements fix my spine?" "Yes", she answered without hesitation. And so I pay for them, they are priced as I would expect. The program is meant to be adjusted with future iris analyses and I have enough for 3 months. It costs me NZ$350 including the analysis.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Milford Evac
It is still raining by afternoon and the party is now split into two roughly even groups. Food is redistributed amongst the groups, one group is to be helicoptered up to Mintaro hut to replace those that are being helicoptered either onto Dumpling hut or back to the start of the trail. And the other group of which I stand in is to hike back out to the start of the trail led by the warden. Mervin stands in the other group and we bid our farewells, I shall not see him again until Malaysia.
We wave our goodbyes to each other and the warden leads us out. We only go as far as ten minutes before we are walking in water. We arrive at the river and there is no boundary between the river and the trail, the water continues to rise as we continue to tread slowly. It is cold but not dangerously cold. Eventually the warden turns us around, it is too risky to continue on foot. We are to return back to the hut to be helicoptered back to the start of the trek and then catch the boat back to Te Anau Downs, from there a bus will return us to Te Anau and even onto Queenstown if we desire it.
The water rises and rises as we attempt to trek out
The party we split from is amused to find us back again so soon. There is an air of excitement in the air as we are given instructions on how to manage ourselves when the helicopter begins transporting us 5 at a time. Soon we hear the faint whirr of the approaching chopper which crescendos into a loud thumping as it makes it careful descent on the deck. It takes several trips between Mintaro, Clinton and the trailhead but eventually only a handful of us remain and then I too am ushered into the chopper. From the air the landscape looks like a disaster zone, there is water everywhere. It is only a short ride though and insulting to the amount of effort we expended on foot two days ago.
The winds are calm enough today for the chopper to fly
We are given to option to stay the night in Te Anau or carry on to Queenstown and I choose to return to Queenstown. This leaves me one full day in Queenstown before I depart. Jules is startled to see me return a day early and I relay the events to her supplemented with my camera footage of my little dramatic rescue. She doesn't buy my story that Mervin got carried away by the strong current though :)
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Milford No Go
Back at the hut, the rain falls intermittently, one moment there is none and the next there is a furious downpour for a few minutes. Of the 3 huts, the storm is least ferocious here because we are sheltered down in the narrow valley by the steep slopes. The warden gives us hourly updates on the conditions at Mintaro hut situated halfway up the trail to Mackinnon Pass and for the Clinton river where we are. They consider using the chopper to transport the trekkers between the huts but the winds are too strong at the higher elevations for this. The river is also preventing the trekkers at Dumpling hut from completing the trek. Dumpling hut is the last of the 3 huts on the Milford Trek. By noon we are resigned to wait another day.
My mood is crushed by this, if I continue the trek having lost a day then I risk missing my return flight to Malaysia because of travel connections beginning the day after the end of the trek. Throughout the day I oscillate between decisions to either risk hiring a rental car and driving in the early hours of the morning to Christchurch to make my 6am flight to Melbourne or hike back out to the start of the Milford Trek, emerging a day earlier and without completing it. I curse the fates for this misfortune dashing the highlight of my trip to New Zealand, there is nothing to do except sit around fending off sandflies (how are these persistent buggers unaffected by the rain??). Everyone's mood is somber, sitting around watching the rain fall on the deck.
The warden organizes a nature trek to keep us occupied, I am impressed by his knowledge of the plant and wildlife.
My back starts acting up so I return to my bunk and allow myself to slip into a funk. According to the warden, the last time this happened was years ago and now it happens to me on this day!! I could handle not completing the Camino last year but I can't let this one go for some reason. The fact that it is happening again makes it extremely difficult to not take this personal now, my funk turns into a rage. By night I arrive at the decision to leave at the next opportunity, for to pursue the trek would jeopardize my flight arrangements, and I would not have the peace of mind on the trail.
That night the rain falls with greater force.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
The Milford Trek Begins
The Anzacs are Australian and New Zealand army corps that served in the First World War against the Turks and again in Vietnam. Unfortunately, the morning I awake in Te Anau to resupply for the Milford Trek is a national holiday in recognition of the Anzacs. I walk through the small town ghostly still in the damp morning mist, and as I dread because of Anzac Day the supermarket is closed when I arrive. Thoughts of abandoning my trek play in my head as I walk back through the town towards the lake to arrive at the only open food outlet and it specializes in pies. I ask the girl at the counter to supply me with pies and sandwiches for breakfast, lunch and dinner for the next 4 days. She thinks I am joking but when she realizes my predicament her lady coworker emerges from the kitchen and volunteers to drive home to bring me non-perishable food for the trek. I am not really in a position to refuse and so I accept her selfless kind gesture. I still buy about 2 days worth of pies and sandwiches before I return to the hostel to pack and then checkout by 10am.
I have about 4 hours before my 30 minute bus ride to Te Anau Downs but I am glad to spend some of the time at the hotel reception because of the friendly diminutive but attractive German receptionist whose blue eyes I admire - Manja. From her, I learn that the bus company is literally next door and I can catch the bus from there. Rather than continually distract her from her duties, I go sit in the waiting room next door and read.
I notice the bus arrive and Mervin gets down to stand beside the bus and enjoy the sunshine. I gather my backpack then pounce upon him giving him a good scare. We board the bus to Te Anau Downs where the trekkers are ferried to the start of the Milford trek. The boat ride offers great views of the mountains straddling Lake Te Anau. It is good to feel the camaraderie and excitement of two friends embarking on a common trekking adventure, we both are pumped knowing that the Milford Trek is the highlight of our trip to New Zealand.
The first day of the Milford trek leads us from the lakeshore along the banks of the Clinton river for about 3 miles until we arrive at Clinton hut. The trail is exquisitely maintained and the only sounds apart from the trekkers are the calling of the birds along the river. As we approach the hut we are startled to see an extremely tall elderly man wielding an axe and walking in our direction. He passes us with a smile and Mervin and I both look at each other then comment how he looks like a character out of Lord of the Rings, we figure Gandalf. The man has extremely long legs.
That night the trekkers gather in the meal room for dinner. For Mervin and myself, there is no cooking needed, we simply munch on our cold pies. A man joins our table, he has been busy frying himself a juicy steak with steamed vegetable and rice. He cuts into his steak then munches loudly exclaiming "Mmmmm! Delicious!", I don't know about Mervin but I almost want to punch the man.
The tall warden introduces himself, gives us the standard safety procedures and rules, then regales us with humorous anecdotes of his encounters with the mischievous Keas, of the DOCs efforts to trap stoats and rats to preserve the native blue duck numbers. His talk is very lengthy, at one point he speaks of the weather in the area: "to determine the weather, you look in that direction and if you can see Mackinnon Pass then it means that rain is coming. If you however, CANNOT see Mackinnon Pass then that means it IS raining." I smile to myself, I had heard the same joke from the warden on the Routeburn trek, a testament to how much rain this area gets. "About 5 years ago, there was so much rain that trekkers were not allowed on the Milford Trek because the river overflowed past safe levels."
During the night, I am awakened by the sound of rain pelting the roof with a fury.
Along the Clinton river
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Routeburn
I complete the routeburn trek traversing 32 km through Mount Aspiring National Park and Fiordland National Park . My back holds up well but on the second day I encounter Ken on the trail and he is not faring so well because of indigestion. He chooses to turn around.
I delight in the open expanse and freedom in the hills. Everything here is so pure and unspoiled it seems. Through each day I don't encounter a single piece of trash on the immaculately maintained trail. I admire the Kiwi's pride in their natural heritage. I am also impressed by the variety of the terrain on the Routeburn trek, in a short 3 day romp one passes from lush temperate rainforest, crystal clear rivers, meadow flats, lakes, glacier hewn valleys, high alpine scenery and formidable rock pinnacles. I see why this trek is so popular, I have never before encountered such dense variation on a trail.
There are two overnight stays on the trail and I have booked huts to sleep in instead of camping. In the huts I enjoy hearing the mixed foreign chatter from the disparate international groups. I meet many young 20-something year olds Gai, Alisa, Ofer from Israel, lone Katerine from Germany, and Canadians surfer Dennis and girlfriend Kristen both from Toronto. At the huts there is a warden/ranger from the Department of Conservation who is in charge of the area. Each night, he/she briefs the guests about safety procedures, rules and educates us about the wildlife and features in the area of the park.
On the last day, April 24th, I spend a little time walking with Jonathan and his wife both in their late 50s and from Australia. I manage to roll my left ankle stomping on the uneven ground with a pack on my back. It is my fault for not heeding the previous wobbles all warnings to tie my laces up tighter on the descent, and knowing that I've a weaker ankle from bad injuries on the tennis court. Luckily, I am almost to the end of the trail and the anti-inflammatory that I had been taking for my back stops the ankle from swelling. At the end of the trail, we clean our boots and spray them for Didymo then sit and fend off sandflies as we wait for the bus to take us to the town called Te Anau.
The bus ride from The Divide to Te Anau is about an hour long and the cushioned seats quickly lull my body into a slumber but I do not allow myself to sleep because of the spectacular terrain outside. The beech forest along the road is not too dense and the light passing through the foliage seems both mysterious and ethereal. The forest yields occasionally to open wild grassy flats perfectly dotted with toetoe, rolling expanses framed by mountains wedged against each other with dark valleys that beckon to be explored. On the left side of the bus are hilly green pastures and the occasional farmhouse. There is a delicate innocence to this place, a sort of gentle, peaceful wisdom and I feel myself brimming with love for this planet in a way I have not felt before.
In Te Anau, we alight the bus around 430pm at the Department of Conservation office on the fringe of Lake Te Anau. At the office I collect my tickets for the Milford Trek tomorrow and get directions to my hostel. It is thankfully just around the office from the DOC office and upon my arrival I drop my backpack then walk 15 minutes into the heart of town to stuff my face with REAL food. My ankle is hurting more now.
At the end of my meal, I feel utterly relaxed and content. I reach under the table and massage the ankle joint, rolling my foot gently. There is a small pop and the ankle settles down back to normal after that. It is dark by the time I return to the hostel to shower, do my laundry then Ascend and sleep.
reach out and drink
The Routeburn Trek Begins
I catch the bus to the Routeburn Trek, there is only one other passenger on it. His name is Ken and he is from Japan but has been working in Auckland as a waiter for the past 8 months. Mervin has opted to rest his knee a few more days and focus on the Milford Trek instead of joining me now.
The driver is a friendly chatty guy and we speak of comparisons between the US and New Zealand, of how the people in Queenstown have disdain for Auckland because they are nowhere near as productive in terms of GDP as the people of the south island who are a fraction of the number and much less pollutive and consumptive, and of 3 meter tall Moas that were hunted to extinction and eagles once so large that the Maori speak of children being snatched away by them. He tells me that the only mammal native to New Zealand is a tiny bat that is rarely seen, everything else has been introduced and in many situations are now threatening the endemic wildlife, especially the bird population. Looking at the incredible amount of roadkill along the lake I surmise that the animals introduced sure agreed with New Zealand, they have really propagated in numbers. I am slightly horrified that he is intentionally driving over the dead possums, hedgehogs and rabbits. He drives well and fast but I a little fearful that the bus will skid off a dead possum into the lake as we take our sharp turns. He senses my unease and he tells me that he is doing the falcons and hawks a favor by tenderizing the meat and flattening it out.
I learn that the sheep are from Spain and I ask him if there are any wild sheep. He replies there are none but for an exception - Shrek the sheep who gained fame after being found by a farmer with 7 years worth of wool growth from living in the wild. By then Shrek is massive because of his unkept fur and there is a charity fundraising event to shear the sheep that is hugely successful. Since then Shrek has risen to international fame touring and raising millions over the years from around the world effectively making it the first ever celebrity sheep.
The bus turns onto an off-road track and we bounce our way for several minutes until we arrive in a peaceful glade nestled among the hills. The only structure here is a clean building with a notice board, benches and toilets. At the start of the trail there is a spray bottle and brush to prevent the spread of Didymo. Before starting the trek, I make careful adjustments to my pack to ensure minimal strain on my back. I feel optimistic knowing that a properly fitted backpack can benefit the spine more than not having a pack on at all. I take in the sweet scent of the air, snap some pictures of the outrageously clear blue river then start walking.
the start of the Routeburn
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
My birthday
It is my birthday today. In the morning I walk 10 minutes into town and find an appealing cafe with a healthy bustle of breakfast activity. I sit down and peruse the menu when I overhear the girl at the table next to mine announce it is her birthday. I turn to tell her that it is mine also and we exchange conversation briefly, she and her female companion are from the UK. I say how lucky we are to be in Queenstown for our birthdays and in her case to also share it with a friend on this day. When my food arrives I enjoy a grilled fish in hollandaise sauce. It is truly tasty.
Mervin and Jules invite me to go with them to Skippers Canyon for a jetboat ride. I decline for two reasons, a bouncy boat ride would not be the right thing for my back a day before I begin a multi-day trek; and secondly, I have not made the hut bookings and transportation arrangements nor packed my gear. These activities consume the bulk of my day.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Oneness Blessing
Before I left for Auckland, I looked up Ascension in Queenstown on the internet to see if there was anybody practicing Ascension here. Perhaps this why I am here in Queenstown. I didn't find any such Ascenders but my search led me to a website about Oneness Blessing and then to a Oneness Blessing contact in Queenstown by the name of Adrian Young whom I emailed. While I was in Auckland the person wrote back and we agreed to meet when I was back in Queenstown.
We speak on the phone today to arrange our meeting and I learn that Adrian is a woman not a man. The rental car must be returned today and I volunteer to do so. The car rental is out of town at the airport and there is a shopping plaza walking distance from there called The Remarkables Shopping Park where Adrian and I agree to meet. There I make a quick trip to the Flightcenter air travel agency to see if I can get a cheap airfare back to Malaysia for immediately after the Great Walks; it is however disappointing.
Adrian walks into the cafe and locates me seated at the back; my surprise extends further - she is Asian. I prompt her about Oneness blessing and why after 8 years of Ascension she had made the switch to Oneness Blessing for spiritual nourishment. She tells me that she still Ascends sometimes but many of the Ascenders in New Zealand are now practicing Oneness Blessings instead. She explains: some people can't deal with the silence it creates, some are not willing to divest the false aspects of their personalities, other's can't deal with the stuff that comes up. We bury our fears in our psyche and when they surface, they can take on other guises to fool us into ceasing the practice. The mind is a sort of entity in itself and it has the relentless guile to preserve it's mastery of who we believe we are. Others simply lack the gumption to deal with them head on; there simply isn't enough Faith to carry them through. Hearing this I am reminded of the parable told by Jesus of the seeds that are scattered, not everyone is prepared to allow the trees to grow and bear fruit. I completely understand what she is saying, I am familiar with the flags that my ego has waved in my mind in attempts to curb my Ascension practice. The mind really is quite cunning.
In a nutshell, Oneness Blessing causes less upheaval in the individual. So is the Toltec approach to awakening from our Dream; each one of us carries within wall of false agreements we have made throughout our lives and fastidiously protect. One can imagine each agreement as a brick and our faith and personal power are tied up in this belief system which we believe without a doubt even though it ties up our personal power to create, we surrender our ability to co-create our reality and realize our full potentials further costing us true happiness, freedom and unconditional love. Instead we accept the drama and emotional pain these beliefs/agreements generate. The Four Agreements are a means to create a doubt in this belief system and doubt is the seed of enlightenment, the person who doubts now takes the responsibility to find the Truth and bit by bit the structure is dismantled brick by brick so that the Truth can be experienced. Each one frees personal power than in turn enables us to tackle the larger ones. Ascension on the other hand though effortless goes directly to the root stresses - in can be too much all of a sudden, especially without guidance and support.
She hands me a picture of Bhagavan and Amma, "this is for you if you wish to keep it". This couple I learn are the founders of the Oneness blessing that is now sweeping the planet. On the back of the photo there is a Sanskrit prayer that I recognize as the Moola Mantra. I negligently place it face down on the table and she chides me to "treat the picture as a living photograph". In other words, respect the photo as though they are really present. I am a little perturbed by this, I tell her that I am wary of any approach to enlightenment that takes the focus outside of myself. She assures me that there is no worship involved. I learn that Bhagavan and his wife are the original transmitters of a healing energy that heightens the powers of the brain and creates endless joy within each individual. hmm... sounds like psychic drugs to me. This gift is not exclusive to them, there is a Oneness University that leads participants through a 21 day process to gradually increases the person’s vibration. When the participants are ready they receive an initiation or attunement to be able to transmit the Oneness Blessing to others. Adrian herself has undergone the process years ago to attain this ability.
A transference of healing energy seems akin to the Reiki process of attunement that I underwent months ago and I have no doubt from that experience that an ability was conferred me. I have no reason to doubt Adrian. She tells me that I will not be the same once I receive a blessing, the mind will be altered to allow the person to move into higher states of emotional joy and bliss by shifting the primary activity of the brain into the frontal lobe. When we operate from the frontal brain versus the parietal lobes or the lower brain centers, we feel connected to everyone and everything. This sounds good but yet I feel a nervousness rise in me, just the knowledge that my mind will not be the same fills me with fear. I remind myself of something I said to someone recently - if it doesn't involve some risk then it's just not worth doing. I request for the blessing, I figure it would be a nice pre-birthday gift to myself.
We shift to a location outside in the sun in the carpark away from people. I sit down and close my eyes as she prepares herself. Then I feel her hands rest gently just above my forehead and they feel quite cool. There is no jolt of lightning and no buzzing of chakras as I had felt during the Reiki attunement, just a pleasant sensation of coolness on the front of my brain. Maybe it's just from the temperature of her hands I think to myself. At the end of it, I am relieved that I still can recall my name and it is still Aaron Shori.
Soon thereafter, Adrian gives me a ride into town and we part ways. Walking back to the apartment, I still feel the vague sensation of coolness.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Glenorchy and Deer Park Heights
Mervin and I take the rental car to Glenorchy which is a scenic small town situated 45 km further along the same lake as Queenstown - Lake Wakatipu. Today I witness for the first time the staggering number of sheep in New Zealand during the drive. All they seem to do is stick their faces in the grass and munch. But that's what makes lamb meat preferred over the other forms of meat, in terms of one's health it doesn't have the level of artificially introduced hormones as the other types of meat since it is essentially 'free range'. As a guy, I would prefer to be without the abnormal levels of estrogen found in chicken/veal/pork. Moobs are not considered sexy in my time.
It is not difficult to find quiet in Glenorchy
Glenorchy is a popular tourist spot due to its proximity to the lake and to many trekking (or 'tramping' as the Kiwis refer to it) tracks. It lies near the borders of Mount Aspiring National Park and Fiordland National Park and trekkers who wish to do the Routeburn Track must pass through this town. Glenorchy received worldwide attention when it was used as one of the settings in the first of Peter Jackson's Lord of the Rings films. We spend the morning sitting on the jetty fending off vicious sandflies, taking pictures. The water here is very clear and it seems as though the jetty is floating in the air. After 30 minutes, we gas up then head back towards Queenstown for lunch.
After lunch our next destination is Deer Park Heights; Jules told us about this great vantage point on a hill offering great views of Queenstown, the airport, surrounding mountains and unobstructed vistas of both lake arms. It only takes 10 minutes from town and when we get there we encounter an electronic gate demanding NZ$20 to drive up the hill. I am outraged by the exorbitant fee, this would earn me an entire week in a National Park in the States or Canada and here is only a drive up a hill! We opt to pay anyways and begin driving up, at the nearest viewpoint we stop and take some pictures. After 5 minutes we observe a donkey sauntering up towards the car. Hmm... that is unexpected. What's next - Shrek? The donkey sniffs us then dismisses us with a toss of it's head when it realizes we have no food offerings. He/she carries on uphill to the next vehicle where we can plainly observe a rather big social gathering of various domesticated beasts eagerly jockeying for food handouts. Ok, perhaps there's more to this place than we thought... I feel a bit like a loser for showing up empty handed :)
Spare a bite?
As we head higher up the hill, there are more hoofed animals such as different species of deer, ponies, goats, llamas, Tibetan yaks all roaming quite freely. They approach the vehicle and practically stick their heads in for handouts. At the top of the hill, there is an odd sight. An ancient Chinese style fort sits up here with a giant painted face of what looks like Mao Tse Tung on the side of it. It is the only structure here and seems quite incongruous with the setting, looking closer we read on a sign that this was actually a movie set constructed for a Korean film. Mervin takes off with his SLR to hunt more animals with his lens; I find the highest point to sit with my eyes closed and Ascend facing the Remarkables mountain range and braving the cold wind. It feels good to be outside and to discard the residual negative energy from the altercation the night before. I feel anchored and relieved by the time Mervin joins me.
Other residents
Deserving of the name Deer Park Heights
Friday, April 17, 2009
Queenstown Drama
I arrive back in Queenstown by flight today since Vivek has also departed for Sydney. There is no one in the studio apartment so I take to the town for reading and coffee. Later in the evening Mervin and Jules return from a 3 day road trip to Catlins in the south of the South island.
That night, some friends are invited over for drinks. As the night progresses, I opt to retire for the evening but a big altercation escalates between my two friends and I in front of the guests. I am furious and pack my bags, I've had enough. This trip is really a wash out, I opt to stay elsewhere tonight then get on a plane the next morning back to Malaysia. Somehow Mervin's mediation settles things and I stay put, apologies are exchanged but the mood is soured.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Tai Chi

On this morning I follow Vivek to the gym and there I learn Tai Chi from a fitness trainer named David whom Vivek has engaged while in Auckland. This man hails from Buffalo, New York and though shorter than me, he is built like an American football player. I learn he has indeed played the Grid Iron, and learned competitive boxing and wrestling having performed in movie fight scenes. Looking at him, you would not expect him to practice TaiChi but he does it everyday for 5 years now. "If you only ever do one form of exercise, make it TaiChi, nothing can improve the quality of your life like it." That is a strong endorsement! "Actually a martial art form, the movements appear simple but it takes a lifetime to master, I have the utmost respect for TaiChi masters".
He shows me the basic 8 step pattern of the Yang style and I think to myself, is that all? I can master this in an hour! But I find that the more detailed information I am given and after repeated corrections, the more lost I become and after an hour is up I can only repeat the first two movements before I blank out. I only complete the routine by mimicking him and neglecting the intricacies which are critical for proper energy flow. Nevertheless, doing so I feel a tingling sensation in my hands.
"TaiChi is good for balancing the Yin and Yang in our body". He elaborates that the Yang is the Sympathetic nervous system which tends to be overtaxed in our stressful lives. The Sympathetic nervous system is the one that governs "Fight/Flight" response. It is triggered under distress/fear the result of prolonged burden here is the production of cortisol which pulls the bodies resources away from extremities essentially interrupting healing in favor of conservation and defense, the cost of this over time is ill health. The society we live in is increasingly 'Yang' and TaiChi aims to counter this effect. The Yin on the other hand relates to the Parasympathetic nervous system. As further convincing, David also tells me about an older student of his who was delighted to part with his Viagra after 2 weeks of Tai Chi which helped offset his Yin and Yang imbalance by tapping into his Parasympathetic nervous system. More can be read about Tai Chi and the nervous system here - Tai Chi and Stress
David also shows me a pose known as the Heavenly Pillar and it is a simple standing posture with arms raised around an invisible pillar of sort and knees slightly bending. He tells me to breathe in and out in six count, apparently this is the most beneficial sort. The purpose of this is to learn to harness the Dan Tien and he shows me the source of energy in our body, two inches below the navel. He tells me to do this everyday also.
To see the routine I learned performed by a master click here.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Piha
On this day we decide to return to Piha to walk a 4 hour trail along the coast recommended by the girl in the Information Office at the Arataki nature reserve a few days ago. We start the trail at an area known as KareKare. We start off in the wrong direction but fortunately our confused expressions draw the assistance of some Kiwis who kindly direct us to the trailhead. I am impressed from my interactions with the locals how they often seem to have a certain stillness and calmness in themselves that it uncommon in most cultures. Perhaps this quality is lost in the rat race typical of over populated cities in developed nations.
From the trailhead we immediately ascend the ridge steadily for a good hour. On the ridge we find ourselves in a low forest where the air is so still is seems we are on a movie set. The weather is perfect. After another hour I pull away from Vivek and allow us our privacy on the trail. It seems surreal. The essence of who I am now walks in my place. I am acutely aware of how perfect the moment is, I have not known peace like this since the Camino. It seems I am walking the Camino again, there is no other place I would rather be. I say out loud "Buen Camino" to no one except the trees, soil, and wind and I grin like a fool. As I pass a slim tree trunk I stop and rest my forehead against it, immediately I feel a surge of emotion strong enough to bring tears, it doesn't last... my mind quickly intervenes with 'why?' and 'what if?' and the emotion dissipates as suddenly as it arrived. I sit on a rock and wait for Vivek.
Together we take the trail that now leads downwards. Eventually the track degrades to a slippery steep rocky mudslide and after some 15 minutes of careful steps we reach the bottom of the hill to find ourselves in a marsh. We trek on a boardwalk built over the water and then step onto large black sandy dunes. The view is quite spectacular. The entire 2 hour trek to arrive here was without human encounter but here on the beach we find a father and his young daughters playfully sliding down the dunes, soon they too are gone leaving behind large scrawled wordings in the sand. I survey my surroundings and I can't stop taking pictures with my camera, on one side the steep verdant slopes of the ridge, at the bottom is the marsh, where I stand the fine black sand and beyond is the ocean with large waves crashing in succession.
We walk in this rather desolate stretch of coastline and the sun shines brightly. The black sand sparkles like stars in the sky. After 45 minutes, the sense of isolation is lost by the presence of surfers braving the cold water to catch a ride on the large untamed surf. At this point we locate the short trail inland to where we parked the car.
The view once you ascend the ridge
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
An easy day in the city of Auckland
Vivek and I take a bus into the city and spend the afternoon in Borders sipping coffee and going through a batch of books we'd selected from the Mind/Body/Spirit section. There are a few books on Toltec wisdom in the stack, but the one that fascinates me most is a book called "The Intention Experiment" by Lynne McTaggart, a well-respected international authority on the science of spirituality. Her bestselling book is called 'The Field' (www.livingthefield.com). We cut short our reading to watch an Imax movie called The Watchmen. It is another DC comic book based production and quite entertaining though very bloody.
We catch the last bus back to Birkdale at 1140pm. Walking the streets of Birkdale suburb, I experience the myriad heady aromas from the scent of the many trees seeming to explode with scent. It seems that trees exude a stronger scent nocturnally. The air in New Zealand is some of the sweetest I have inhaled, it seems I am walking an olfactory safari. Not a single car disturbs our 15 minute walk in the still crisp air.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Rotorua
Today Vivek and I drive to the Rotorua district to explore the geothermal wonders and lakes formed by extinct volcanos in the area. This district has a multi-cultural population of approximately 68,000 people of whom 35% are Maori. Rotorua is renowned as the heartland of Maori culture. It is a 3 and a half hour drive from Auckland, and I feel a bit unnerved by the poor handling of the small 90s Toyota we had rented. And as one would expect in NZ, we see nothing but farms and the occasional small town along the way. 80% of the names of locations are in Maori and it takes a bit of a trick to pronounce them. For instance, 'Whangarei' is pronounced 'Fangarey'.
When we arrive at Rotorua there is a constant taint of sulfur in the air but after a while it goes unnoticed. I spend about NZ$200 to visit 3 geothermal locations, one called 'Te Puia' has a commercialized Maori village where we watch a staged production showcasing the dances, music and shown tidbits from their culture. The highlight of that performance was the Haka or war dance that the Maoris perform in front of their opponents prior to battle. A lot of defiant posturing and exaggerated mad expressions with bulging eyes peppered the entertainment. Vivek tells me that the people that perform the Haka the best in this day and age are the NZ rugby team known as the All Blacks as they face off with the opposition before every professional rugby match . Leaving after the show I feel quite robbed for the money we paid, and quite disappointed with the Hangi or traditional Maori meal. That one turned out to be not much more than steamed tapioca, potatoes, carrots and chicken.
Next was a half hour drive south to the Thermal Wonderland known in Maori as Wai-O-Tapu. Here the variety of mineral deposits leave colorful coatings on the earth and there are massive pools and lakes as well as the most impressive geyser at Rotorua which only erupts once daily at 1015am. I thoroughly enjoy the 2 hour circuit on foot and take many pictures. Here I felt I had gotten my money's worth.
When we return to the car we notice the left rear tyre is very low on air and barely drivable. We limp the car for 10 minutes until we reach the highway where a gas station air pump quickly resolves the problem. The low tyre pressure pretty much explained the tendency of the car to skid on the right turns.
An hour's drive later we pull into the parking lot at Hell's Gate where we expect to indulge in a mud bath and spa. Before I exit the car, I am amused to find a large male peacock wandering beside it. There is no indication of where it came from or whose it is. At Hell's Gate there is another collection of geothermal pools, but once you've seen a few boiling mud pits and hot water pools they quickly start to lose their fascination. The spa was communal and merely cordoned sections of mud and hot water. My vision of being pampered by a lovely Maori girl suggested by the brochure were cruelly shattered by our confrontation with the gruff male Maori attendant in coveralls who was more interested in getting his eyeful of the girls in their swimsuits than assisting Vivek and me. We are given curt instructions on how to handle ourselves then left alone, we don't stay long.
We are quite famished after the long day and we decide to drive into town to get a bite before heading home. We find an ornate cafe called The Fat Dog and the burger known as The Dog's Bollocks turns out to be one of the finest we have ever tasted, not to mention the tallest with it's double fat patties.
Wai-O-Tapu
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Around Auckland
The past 3 days have been largely devoted to short trips around the city of Auckland, I visit the waterfront and am struck by how much this section of the city resembles Vancouver's waterfront where in both places there is a quay from which various ferries run. The streets of Auckland allow the pedestrian a lot of personal space, there are simply not that many people compared to other major cities. At one point as I stand at busy cross walk and hear a rather girlish scream as a man falls from the Sky City tower with a cord attached to his ankles. Bungy jumping is huge here in NZ and the downtown core is also a qualified arena for the sport. Just outside the city of Auckland, there are a few small parks on hills which are actually craters from which offer lovely views of the city. There are many craters, and much geothermal/volcanic activity throughout New Zealand.
Auckland's prime bungee jump - Sky City tower
My back has been strengthening and today I feel capable of a sustained walk without too much discomfort. Vivek and I drive 45 minutes southwest of Auckland to a coastal area known as Piha where there is a conservation area known as Arataki nature reserve. Here The Waitakere ranges hug the coast and offer stunning seaward views. Since there is limited daylight left at the time, we decide to take a short 1 hour trek on a nature trail near the visitor center. In this place I am struck by the diversity and density in flora. I am mesmerized and my senses bask in this feast, I have not been so keenly attuned in many months. Later on I come across a massive Kauri tree, it must be a thousand years old and I stand in awe. I place my hand on the bark and then I feel the impulse to hug the tree. This is something I have not done before and part of me feels foolish but doing it I perceive a certain omniscient wisdom in this tall majestic tree. It feels cleansing of sorts to embrace the trunk. A couple of minutes further up the trail I see a sign that speaks of Tane Mahuta - The God of the Forests and how his spirit is found in all living things. Small wonder that the Maori natives believe this.


Thursday, April 9, 2009
Auckland
I arrive in Auckland at the tail end of a shower and the tarmac is wet, nevertheless I am grateful for the warmer climate. The next day is Good Friday and the start of a 4 day weekend here in NZ, the traffic is horrific as I head in the airport shuttle towards Munmun's home. I had heard that traffic would be bad here but what I witness is alarming, there is congestion on the freeways from every direction and we crawl even on the surface streets through neighborhoods. As I step out of the shuttle an hour later, the clouds have drawn back and I notice a rainbow as I walk up the driveway. It is a good omen.
The house is tucked away from the road in a suburb called Birkdale, there are big ferns shielding the home from all sides it is immersed in green. Vivek greets me at the door, he is much bigger than I remember, he's really filled out but I recognize the features of the boy I knew. He tells me he has just started with a trainer at the gym nearby to get himself back into shape and he teaches him Tai Chi as well. Munmun and her husband are at the Indian restaurant that they own. It keeps them very busy especially since the chef just had a hernia operation. Vivek and I head to the nearest mall, I am curious to observe Kiwis here. The mall is very small and Kiwis seem to wander through it leisurely and aimlessly quite unlike the shopping mob at MidValley.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
In Contemplation of New Zealand
Another rainy day... no matter, now it is the time for me to heal physically. M and J took the rental car out of town so that M could satiate his sightseeing and photographic compulsions. Recuperating on my own I ponder the reason I am here, thousands of miles south of the equator. I have never been this far south before. The desire to grow my professional career here has waned somewhat with my firsthand account of New Zealand's shrinking economy, and no doubt also due to the situation with my back and the inclement weather. So I surmise that this country New Zealand, is simply to serve for now as the outer arena for my inner work as a warrior.
When I began the Bright Path, I had never heard of Toltec wisdom and the term 'spiritual warrior' existed as a vague notion. Now the concept is more firmly rooted in my psyche. By now I have heard of a few definitions of what it means to be a spiritual warrior; the definition that I employ is the one offered by Robert L. Spencer in his book "The Craft of the Warrior" in which he states 'a warrior is an impeccable hunter of personal power'.
Impeccability is key to acquiring the personal power touted by the ancient Toltecs as essential for moving beyond ordinary realms of reality and thus transcending ordinary levels of awareness.
To quote Spencer on the relatedness of The Known, Unknown and Personal Power:
"To understand how to expand one's relationship with the universe, warriors distinguish between the known and the unknown. The greater one's domain of the known, the more effective he can be, and the more one can DO. Therefore it is necessary to expand the known by delving into that realm of infinite proportions, the unknown. Only by forays into the unknown can warriors grasp new knowledge. If the size of one's known stays the same, no new capacities or possibilities can develop, and there is no increase in personal power. This is the road to stagnation and senility.
Ah, but the unknown is the limitless storehouse of possibilities. All knowledge, all ideas, all abilities beyond what one currently has are in the unknown. It is, therefore, the lair of personal power, and the warrior must journey there to harvest knowledge and transform it into power. In this quest the warrior must depart from living the ordinary life, for journeying into the unknown is minimized in ordinary life. To go beyond the limits of the known requires great personal power already. Accordingly, the warrior must marshal his personal power to cross the border into the unknown, and he does so by the process of saving the power he already has, not letting it leak away** and be wasted. This process is called impeccability, and it forms the frame around much of the warrior's discipline, practices, and decisions."
What excites me about coming to New Zealand is precisely my curiosity of the unknown. By relinquishing my job, familiar surroundings and friends yet again I've once again been thrust into the unknown and admittedly it has left me feeling adrift and disoriented. Truthfully, I certainly do not feel any more personal power, instead I feel less. It seems my personality's basic fears* which I had conveniently and masterfully dodged over the course of my time in Malaysia through the preoccupation of work, string of relationships and tennis coaching sessions now confront me full bore. Consequently, I feel a sense of vulnerability and measurable loss of confidence. Lately, I observe self-criticisms and their attendant negative emotions which hitherto had been thought successfully dealt with. But I am here to create and I recognize that the right path entails challenge, if anything this current circumstance comforts me that I am treading correctly. So I resolve to do my best to stay alert and right minded.
* These are delineated by the personality enneagram contrived originally by Gurdjieff. (See The Fourth Way Enneagram)
** There are numerous power leaks such as self-importance, identification, binding habits, uncontrolled imagination, and negative emotions.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Stuck in a rut
I feel alienated from J and M, somehow pain causes one to withdraw and I have done just that. The trip they had planned today didn't materialize because the weather has turned sour and it's been raining the entire day.
Later...
To avoid risking permanent damage to my psyche I leave the apartment, braving the weather and my discomfort. I sit at Vudu cafe nursing an excellent mochaccino somberly watching the rain fall outside as the agitated nerve in my back nags me. I try to accept my circumstances, I have faith that there is a lesson here for me. The thought occurs "the experiences we tend to resist the most are the most important ones in our lives". So I resign myself and stay faithful that I am treading the right path coming to Queenstown.
As I leave the cafe I ask the server if there is a pharmacy nearby and she directs me to a gold mine of pain relief treatments. I am delighted to find Voltaren and a strong rub containing Arnica. I pick these up and hope springs anew that this trip might go as planned after all.
Queenstown so far
Up until today it had been rather hectic. The first night here I actually considered cutting short my stay, I had the displeasure of being included in plans for boozing at the rowdy local tavern for young backpackers. This was precisely the scene I was running away from, funny how what you try to evade tracks you down. Tired from the journey and short on fuse I left after an hour when I realized that the beers were not slowing down in the frequency of their arrival. I sat outside to observe a gang of raucous youth indulge in their pub crawl through the town while I waited for M and J.
An observation - the level of happiness I am experiencing in Queenstown is where it was when living in MidValley. In fact, there are greater challenges here. I've now given up more of my privacy for the next few weeks, currently it is confined to the bathroom. For me, privacy seems to be on overall decline since I left California. Ironically there is more noise around me living here than I had in Midvalley since there is little refuge here for me. My Ascension practice has been curtailed too and the lack of quiet contemplation contributes to the increased sense of unease in me.
J has been a fabulous host and definitely patient with me and M. I am grateful to her. J had thoughtfully acquired a rollaway bed for me but I've opted to sleep on comforters and a camping pad placed on the floor in order to prevent the stress on my back from sleeping on the soft rollaway mattress.
Tomorrow M and J leave for a coach ride to Milford and then they will do the day cruise to take in Milford Sound. I've decided to seize the opportunity to rest up some more and really soak in Queenstown properly. Queenstown pop. is approx. 20,000 and the people in this area of town are mostly tourists. Today I enjoyed basking in the sun on the grass by the lake and Ascending while drifting in and out of sleep. The best day so far :)
I know things will look up when my back strengthens and once I get outside to explore the wilderness as I have planned. Looks like M and J have returned from the party... time to tuck in.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Journey to New Zealand
Seen from above Australia is an ocean of rippled red sand interrupted by striations and whirling patterns apparently the mark of ancient waters long receded. As we approach the city of Sydney from the air, I try to asses the character of the place. Typically each port of entry has a signature energy field around it that can be sensed subtly, this one seemed to emit a bouncy sort of lightweight energy, almost playful. I used to visit Australia from time to time as a child with my parents, but it's been almost 20 years since my last trip here. I feel quite out of place, and as we descend into our final approach, I sense trepidation. I do my best to embrace it.
The journey from the airport to the hotel happens to be quite stressless, I easily catch a taxi to the hotel only 4 km away. When I arrive I ask the pleasant middle eastern driver if it is customary to tip, and he replies "yes". I offer him $2 but he politely declines it. Even over the meals I do not observe anyone tipping.
Australians are very polite and smile a lot. Also, from the airport staff I already observe that they seem to have a healthy glow and keep themselves quite trim. Even the hotel food is healthy and tasty though simple suggesting the Australian diet is health conscious. When I am finally in my spartan but impeccably clean room, I dump my cumbersome bags and then I wonder what on earth I am doing here in the South. My friends and family seem very far away now and this place seems rather unfamiliar. My strategy to approach the people as funny sounding Americans still doesn't mask the fact that I am in a foreign land and I will have to make new adjustments to live here, or rather well... New Zealand.
The next morning I catch the hotel shuttle to the airport at 620am. At the airport check-in counter I am told that I need an outbound ticket from New Zealand and redirected to a ticket purchasing counter. After the purchase, I haul all my pieces of luggage back to the check-in counter and this time the woman tells me I do not have a re-entry VISA for Australia from New Zealand, I tell her I have an outbound flight the same day on Malaysia airlines (May 8th) to return to Malaysia. She says that I need to print it out the itinerary and that I can do so downstairs at the bakery. I can't imagine travel much more challenging than this, chagrined I recollect my pieces of luggage and before I make off I implore her to check the VISA again, this time she realizes that she misread the expiry year and she is apologetic. Buoyed by this small break, I now brace myself for the additional baggage fee and I get another break, I am thrilled to learn that I am only charged A$36 for it.
As we fly over New Zealand, I am impressed by how different the terrain here is compared with Australia. Here it is more mountainous and hilly, rolling endlessly. Closing my eyes, I try to sense the energy, it is difficult to put into words, maybe... fresh, clean and embracing.
On the tarmac, the mountains seem to spring from a short distance from the edge of the runway. It reminds me of the airport at Cusco in Peru. I catch a shuttle from the airport that takes me directly to the motel, along the way I am struck by how vivid the colors around me are. My eyes have been starved for this assortment of vibrant shades of blue, green and reds. When I see the giant lake that Queenstown nestles against, the azure blue is dazzling and surreal. I dismount from the shuttle and I see my friends Mervin and Jules waving to me with big excited gestures and smiles. "Fancy meeting you here!"
"From the sea for as far inland as the eye can reach, nothing is to be seen but the summits of these rocky mountains which seem to lay so near one another as not to admit any valleys between them." - James Cook describing New Zealand on his voyage of discovery in 1770


